The Discrimination King.....with teeth

Pok 'er Face

2010-11-03T14:09:00.002+08:00

That's how you try to wake Lady Gaga up.

In your life, you sometimes experience an awesome week, but Life, as a bitch as usual, will turn around and give you a ride so fast you can't finish muttering "Oh shit".

This week has been surprisingly shocking. My ex-course mate got married yesterday, though I expected him to do so 2 years later (too horny I assume, lulz). Next I bumped into a chap who I almost forgot and had a good chat with him, with his face ready to chew my head off if he tries. And the next I am running back and forth between my work site and office for 4 straight days, adding that 2 days ago people here are still celebrating my Home town's first trophy in 89 years. Oh joy.

Now that tomorrow is public holiday and only my company will be business as usual, only bright side is I don't have to stuck in jam for a day, and get to loiter around, solo.

You know, I should stop reading the horoscope, chinese and western, all I got from them is:

"O hai, we writing long essay of positive things you wanted to read, so you can have a sense of false hope and unprepared for huge disappointment. Yet we expect you to continue believe in us so you can continue holding on to that false sense of hope and security to move on with your life."

Most people got lucky, few don't.

Now you feel it now you don't

2010-10-03T09:42:00.002+08:00

So how does it feel after working for 4 months ?

Brilliant.

Brilliant in not so awesome way. Brilliant in not so convenient way. Brilliant in not so everyone-is-awesome-to-your way. Brilliant in not so exciting way. But overall, it is brilliant.

Maybe I just hate university life despite all the good and bad memories there, but hey, there's monthly salary for me to buy stuff I wanted despite objections from my dear mother, of course I have to everything in moderation, yes ?

....

Nah.

Infact I am clueless what lies ahead, despite the burden of having to get laid is strike off from my to-do list. Even I am not sure about earning more money but hey sooner or later I have to learn to play mutual fund, provided that I am not hurr durr enough to fubar it.

October arrived and it brings along cool weather which is a good timing provided that I have been cooking myself in construction site for the past 2 months, bloody summer. Give me monsoon anyday.

Oh well life goes on, I believe I am the only 1986-er in my home town.

When the dust settles...

2010-05-29T21:52:00.002+08:00

It's done.

I am graduated.

Saying goodbye to course mates is never easy, but there is always Facebook and instant messangers to spam at. Thus I don't believe that goodbye is permenant, just like what The Bread sung.

4 years is long indeed, but looking back, it is just like yesterday. There maybe some tasks I failed to finish, or debt that someone still owe me, but it is done. Period. I am getting the fuck out of here. The feeling of real freedom is just undescriable, infact, feeling free is an understatement.

Many said that university life is the best, I wish I can prove them wrong, for I am having nausea thinking about all the notes that I can recall as far as Year 1 Semester 1. Many forgotten how terrible revising a subject was, which is still a memorise fiesta.

Having went to Phuket and krabi trip, I managed to challenge myself, harden my balls, and most of all, enjoy every moment with them. I had made a mistake for slowing to join in them gang, for this I believe that I had made up for this by joining the trip.

Cheerios you bastards, it has been fun. Have a good lives y'all.

Come forth the ending

2010-04-14T23:39:00.002+08:00

In less than 2 weeks my existence in this university will cease without question. 4 years finally come to this, a well mix of sweet and sour, betrayal and loyalty, notes and books, presentation and expectation, young and senile, strict and lean, egomaniac and humble pie, etc.

Bloody hell just get me out of this shit hole.

Tigger

2010-01-20T22:33:00.003+08:00

Here's something Tiger related. Chinese people refer crossroads as the "Tiger's Mouth". Operating business is mostly considered a no-no, or else suffer either minor or dire consequences.

In my home town, there's shop selling lights and lamps specialties for almost a decade and a half, which was considered not bad. They decided to close down and move on. Then someone took over and open a cyber cafe plus restaurant, which was quite ambitious and full of potential. The cafe closed shop after just 4 months of operation as there was hardly any customers.

And then came an owner opened a vegetarian restaurant, and boy, how it shocked me.

The restaurant prospers, and I have never seen it so lively and never ending supply of customers come flooding the shop that situated in the so called "Tiger's Mouth". Must because of how holy it is to open a vegetarian restaurant to ward of fierce spirits, yes ?

Somehow, it saddens me how most Chinese still believe that Tiger is bad, while Dragon whoring all the lime lights. I don't see any wrong about being borned under Tiger year. Every general description I read about Tiger zodiac, it just...nothing wrong it. Oh well, maybe I just sad when my mom told me how less babies borned under Tiger's sign. Here's the blessing in disguise, I don't need to fiercely compete with others.

3 weeks to go to welcome year of Tiger, my year to be exact. Here's an early of live long and prosper to you all. Make it a good year despite of current chaos that we are having. Oh who am I kidding...

It is the most ordinary time of the year

2009-12-28T00:02:00.002+08:00

All preparation for the festive season will just gone by after 24 hours ? Chinese New Year can do better than that.

Next year after May I may not see most of the people I met in universities, but at least I have someone to keep in touch with when I come back to KB to start working.

Heck, I don't care if I can't find a girl there till I am 40 years old, if I can't fix myself, why I must have time for other ?

Meh.

Moot

2009-10-30T01:48:00.002+08:00

"So Jie, when are you gonna update your balog ?"

A very good question from my dad when I munched down my Double Mozza in A&W, which is still alive surprisingly, and undergone revonation too.

Will I scream in agony that my pirvacy has been stripped away start crying ala "LEAVE BRITNAY ARONE !!111" or just accept the fate that my parents has became very tech survey.

I blame my cousins.

...

Hey, it is fun to blame anything but oneself :D.

To say Kota Bharu has not changed much is lying. It does change, but I don't know for better or worst, which is natural in anyway. I won't be the next Kuala Lumpur but hey it is all good for now.

I will be attending my cousin's wedding coming 11th December. Met her fiance, a nice guy overall. Somehow within me I imagine that I might become like him, marrying late. But that just another story to tell one fine day.

Anyway, congrats to her, whether to become a baby factory or not is up to her, as long as they themselves are living happily then all is good, way better than succumb to the society's pressure that everyone must start romance since young, while those who never experience before will be frowned upon and labeled as a no life.

Now I am praying that no one at the wedding ask me whether I am still single and lecture me about how much fun I have missed out and wasted my youth away on toys instead of chasing after girls like rabid dog. Just please don't let me pull a conversation stopper when I am there.

Perhaps I need to stay away from sites that dedicate to romantic tips and arguement about relationship.

There's no point

2009-09-10T22:06:00.001+08:00

There's no point pushing oneself when he already doesn't have the mood to revise further.

There's no point walking around in circle in the room when there's no laptop.

Yup, I am officially bored.

Clean freak

2009-08-13T22:43:00.004+08:00

Right, half an hour ago I finally lashed out at them about how I feel like I am the only one did all the house chores. The head house, whom happen to be my school mate, or soon will be ex-school mate, confronted me about it. I understood and expected that coming, what what she said still puzzled me :

"Why you did that to us ?"

"us" ? Excuse me, "US" ? What makes you think that you have to defend them ? The washroom is outside, while yours is inside which connect my room to yours. Now now I know you want to use the heater which is in the outer washroom, but I never see you use it frequently anyway. Second one :

"I do wash that washroom sometimes"

"I" you said ? Why ? Why you should be the one to do the job while those 3 just sit there and gossip till the cows come home. And "Sometimes" ? Time or no time it is your business, I also have to do it even though my class end at 6pm and I come back tired like fuck every tuesday. No matter what, when it is my turn to do house chores, then I do, time or no time. I even get up early at wednesday morning (which I have no class) to honour the responsibility if I decided to postpone.

I understand you decided to do so, I (maybe) understand those 2 questions above. You haven't seen that washroom frequently. I have to. Cause I always use it to bath and shave and god knows what I am doing inside. I have to witness all the fucking horror inside that washroom everytime I use them, and the burden I feel everytime I see the hair that gathered around the sinkholes, before my turn to do the house chores.

See this ? This picture was taken in 4th of August, my turn to do house chores, and this was around 10 days worth of THEIR HAIR !!

You forgot how clean this apartment was before my other house mate graduated. Everyone of us did our duty, no question asked. No time ? Postpone. Everyone used to marked off their names on that duty paper, that was before he moved out. I hate to say this but I missed those days, and I have to deal with it.

Of course you will hate me for that, and might kick me out and make me find another place to live. I am fine with it. Those girls already use their boring "yell something awful to piss people off" method. I am used to it. I finally decided to lash out and I am responsible for it.

Fine.

NOTE : I know you are reading this, dad. This is my problem and I don't want Mr.Lau Awang to get involve. Please, for once, let me rant it out and don't show it to everyone to create more problem.

I love you, and I am sorry.

2009-07-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

3 days ago my mom phoned me to tell me a short storyof her dream.

She dream that while she was doing the house chore as per usual, my late grandma came down from the stair, holding her clothe on her right arm.

My mom asked her whether she wanted her clothe to clean or not, and proceed to tell her to throw her clothe into the washing machine, my dad (still in her dream mode), however, asked my mom who the heck she was talking to, and she woke up. My dad (post-dream, mind you, do I have to structure out the story in detail ?) jokingly asked her how was my grandma looked like. Her replied, she was like when she was 70s, happy and chubby old fellow, which made me smile.

And it has been a year since my grandma passed away on July 22th, she was 89 years old, or maybe around 90s. She had lived a very, very long life.

After the phone conversation, it got me traveled back in time, how my grandma kept slapping my forehead while learning to brush my teeth the hard way, and got chased around by her wielding the rotan as I uttered "cibai" in front of her. Yes it still makes me chuckle.

However during 2003, my grandma suddenly changed. She became more withdrawn and senile. She became very unhygienic and kept rely on us, her loved ones, to help her even though she still have the strength to do so, and it wasn't even a heavy job.

This is where I started to hate her.

Yes, I hated her. I hated her for disturbing my hectic study by calling my name for no reason. I hated her for almost screwing up my STPM, I hated her for making me wash her feces and helped her changed diaper, and worst of all, I hated her for becoming the grandma that I couldn't recognise anymore when I was a kid.

Before I came down to KL in 2006 to further my study in UTAR, she was bed ridden, unable to move by herself as she was too lazy to do so. As I am the only one who had time for her when it comes to cleaning up, after I was gone, only my aunt, who was a retired nurse, did the dirty job for my grandma. As I came back to to home town every long break, everytime I look at her, I felt that she kept slipping away, and all I could muster from my mouth is "fuck you".

Her condition when on until to her death on that very day. God forbid I couldn't felt any sadness in me, it is a feeling that I still can't explain. To put it this way, it was time for her to leave.

While paying her the last respect, my relative told me one thing that I overlooked. She said that among all the grandchildren she observed, she LOVED me the most. However, that time I just didn't care, assuming that this is an attempt to make me feel sad and guilty, but I still had that very sentence kept inside my head till now.

And it is true.

Who made me feel all comfy when I was afraid of the dark and let me slept beside her ? Grandma.

Who was there to console me when I got scolded by teacher for having a sucky result and keep telling me to fight back ? Grandma.

Who was there to reward me to make sure my efforts were not in vain ? Grandma.

Who was there to make me smile ? Grandma.

And what did I do ? Nothing. Just busy with my own study and wallowed on how I couldn't get a girlfriend yet. She loved me.

It is captain obvious it is too late now, but life moves on, and with all the philosophy about how human take things for granted settled down, she has gone. Period.

5 more days to go before the 1st anniversary of her funeral, I sigh a sense of relief, as she finally found peace in her death.

Rest in peace, and I love you, Ms.Lau Sin Hoe.

Things that almost destroyed this place

2009-06-30T01:35:00.000+08:00

Twitter :D

Relentless

2009-05-02T00:54:00.002+08:00

Taken from someone who is blood related to me :

Zombies. That's what we should be called or as the Chinese would say, "jom-bee". Despite all the blows we suffered, crippled and shot at, we just keep coming back for more. And we're always right behind you, around the bend. No rainbow's end or your Huckleberry friend waiting. Just us, cold and ugly. One slip and we will pounce. Part vampires, part warriors, carnivores and voyeurs, we shall pursuit, picking and pulling, trying to get our fingers in. Alas, we will always be those melodramatic fools, the geek that will never get the dream girl no matter how hard he tried, the Ennis Del Mar that can't quit Jack Twist, the wolf that blew on the brick house, the coronary thief that stole one heart too many and like all zombies in fictions, we will get our heads blown to smithereens in the end and you got away. I am afraid the same case scenario will be applied yet again this time around, just like every other time. Oh we have gotten used to this Hollywood script-ending. But meanwhile, we just refused to die and we're sticking around a little longer this time. Scared you didn't we? How about a trip down the wire for maximum horrifying pleasure? We'll be there and we hope you enjoy the trip as much as we do so hang on! We provide more dramas than all Hokkien soap opera put together. We're zombies, bastards like us just won't stay down. We're specialists in hope.

Signed,
*edited*
a Liverpool fan

Kinda surprise coming from a person who has almost everything and label me a loser for not having a girlfriend yet.

Still, the bad timing haunt me, and might be endless.

With sappy songs in the back ground

2009-04-16T01:18:00.002+08:00

And the surrounding is pitch black with only the LCD screen as my only source of light, what should think of ?

Various choice I can make :

Go to sleep

Read Interview With The Vampire and then go to sleep

Browse youtube and then go to sleep

Watch a movie and then go to sleep

Listening to some MP3s and then go to sleep

Delete this blog and then go to sleep

Think back some memories before go to sleep

Hug my bolster for minutes and doze to sleep

Turn on air con and doze off to sleep

and on

and on

and on......

Many choices, one can be chosen, just like an Role Playing Game, every choice has an impact on your destiny to either greatness, or downfall.

I do think of her actually, even though things started to fade away.

And I might have thought...

2009-04-11T20:38:00.002+08:00

Righht I am feeling drowsy as I just woke up from my nap.

My training report had been successfully arrived into my supervisor's hand, and it was at Monday or tuesday, talk about fast !

Will be off to Alor Setar for the first time in 3 years, I missed the dim sum there. Might be next 2 weeks.

Still thinking about the choice to either owrk at KL or here.

Bah I am still wanna lie down even though i had my dinner, play game first.

Snail mail

2009-04-05T21:28:00.002+08:00

Today I mailed my industrial training report down to KL. POS Malaysia said that it will take minimum 4 days to reach there. Four days ? I am sure hope so cause my dead line is this saturday. Moreover, instead of using POS laju, my dad suggested me to use AR registeration, as to make sure that my report is comfirmed received in their hands and the confirmation card will be sent back to me as proof. In case anything go wrong, they will not blame me for my late delivery.

Bah, I have been taking a nap at evening alot lately, and go online till 3 or 4 am in the morning, so yeah I still feel all groggy from the nap and might type stupid things, anytime now.

Obladi oblada

2009-04-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

Oh finally, training is over, and I had done my report and it is only a matter of printing it out and become a scrapbook. Cheers for myself for finished it early so I can rest with a peace of mind.

Heck, I almost got screwed by my own supervisor of the company by gave me a rating of "fair" and "poor". Now now I am aware that I am not as experienced as her, what did she expect me of ? a computer? beside my CGPA is on the line here. Luckily I took the matter to the executive manager and both us kept this as confidential after he rearranged the rating. Period. Here I would like to thank him for his patience and understanding, hope I am not letting you down for the last 6 months :'D.

For the past 6 months I did feel like a frog inside a well, unaware of what had happened in my surrounding, be it politics, or news about my friends & course mates.

Next I will be travelling to Alor Setar with my mom after 11th of April, and god damn I must have their dim sum till I become obese, it is been 3 years I stopped going there.

Oh yeah tell me, what should do with my bank account that has over rm5000 worth of money ?

Look ! Time flies by..

2009-02-09T00:14:00.002+08:00

Oh my, I seem to neglect this for a month, oh dear oh my god, oh your god and everybody's god, and all we want is shady lanes. Sue me for repeating the song every minute, it sent me back to the good old 90s.

Officially, I have 2 more months to go for my training, and I already kick start my final report. Yes, I have tendency to finish quick so I can enjoy my REAL holiday, however I have to constantly remind myself that being quick doesn't mean the road is smooth, *sigh* need to check my spellings and toeing the line set by the formats.

Chinese New Year is same as last year, very quiet, and I wanted to sleep almost all day due the exhaustion of my training. Good thing that the manager is cool and would like to ~~tie me here~~ discuss my future in the company when I graduate next year.

Now here's the dilemma. Kota Bharu is my home town and I bloody love it, but I will be lying if I don't say this town is boring and for the better words, lack pf privacy. Granted, construction progression is gradually building, be it big or small, I just can't feel the developement. I wanted to work at KL to gain more experiences and most of all, all my friends are there, I want to enjoy going down the city every saturday (or sunday if I start working) and satisfy my hobbies. Beside, even though I never enjoy "cuci mata" much, finding a girlfriend, as desperate as I can get, is slim here.

But here's the catch.

Next year won't guarantee the economy will bounce back for this forsaken country, living expense will be sky rocket as expected, and I am reluctant to waste my parents money. Enough is enough, I need to stop relying on their resources. Easier said than done, I might crawling back to their arms and ask if I am in deep financial trouble (no gambling and joli-ing, mind you, I am still very kampung-ish).

This is a very hard choice I have to make. Oh well I shall see if I want to sacrifice my freedom for a job which is already waiting for me here, or sacrifice my sanity to pursue my luck in KL. Not sure whether I am the one that actually living a very very comfortable life, am I ?

Regrets....I had a few actually.

2009-01-01T23:57:00.002+08:00

A middle finger to 2008 and hello 2009. Happy new year to you, you, you and you.

3 years pursuing tertiary study is quite a feat, my endurance never cease to amaze me. I will be lying if I don't say I dislike my course a wee bit, hate is a very strong word so please bear with me. Judging from my training session with a construction company after 3 months, I am still muddy about what I am doing, decision-wise, even though I didn't fumble in my basic skills of a quantity surveyor.

Thinking back, I think I should have took nursery. I won't claim myself that I can stand the things that odd and things that squaint, I just love to move around instead of sitting at my desk, staring at the papers and drawings. But that doesn't meant I HATE the course I am taking now, it does have its merit, for I can see the progression of a structure and things but alas, there's still long way to go for me to be that pro.

I think I was right about year of the Rat. It sucks. Period. Now comes the Bull, hope everything is bullish this year, include my....desperado side. It is not everytime, just occasionally, pops into my head whever I have nothing to do, the possible of ending like 40-year-old virgin is quite high for me. *sigh*

So what should I do in 2009 ? Finish my training report with style and effort of course, this is my golden chance to jump as near to 3.0 CGPA as possible. I am not a high achiever, but I willing to learn, slow learner doesn't meant I am a retard y'know :P.

My parents doesn't mind me taking up jobs that are different from my current course, hence I do tend to make this as my part time. A 26 years old friend of mine, I hope his option of letting me and my chemical course buddy to open a music instrument shop in KL still open, although this is just a dream. I love music. Really. Thanks to them my powderful England warrant me an easier path in communication, and peiople thought that I was from an english educated school, or in other word, banana XD.

The chemical friend of mine, talented bastard in classical guitar, if he still considering it, then it is good to go, sigh a wishful thinking indeed. Pray that I am not that selfish in the future.

Anyway that's all I have in mind. Have a good 2009 for you and me.

A long December

2008-12-17T00:04:00.002+08:00

2 more weeks before the end of 2008, what are the things I am going to say ?

Bush got thrown with a pair of shoes, about time too.

Industrial training ready to hit half way, which the duration is about 6 months, damn slow.

Monsoon is deadly as usual, cold, wet and annoying. Did I say it is fucking cold ?

People keep talking till they don;t know when to stop, even in msn, sorry need to rant about it, they just can't stop typing, luckily i turn off the msn sound effects.

Will write somemore later days, too tired nao.

This is madness

2008-11-22T00:48:00.001+08:00

Constant repeating of daily routine just driving me nuts, and one day off is just not enough.

And I wonder what is she doing now ? Did the signal she gave me is true ? Or I might be misinterpret it ?

Sight...

I am lazy

2008-11-02T22:44:00.002+08:00

Yes, I am. It's been a while.

Bored to death in training, and frustration in last minute deadline, and it was not caused by me to tell you the fact.

Sleeping early as usual, nothing much to do. Dilemma oh dilemma.

Anyway I am will be heading down KL, just to clean my room and get my laptop back.

Bored. Apple juice sucks, if anything that causes me sudden diarrhea this will be it.

Laters.

Rain and frustration

2008-10-04T01:01:00.002+08:00

Everytime I want to jog, the sky darkens, when I do otherwise, it shines like fuck. And it has been continue for 2 weeks since I came back. I better get my back a dumb bells and do a routine push up, can't rely on apple juice all the time.

Anyway my training has been smooth so far, and finally beat the curse of "D", as I passed all my subjects, hooray for me.

Checking out the Facebook, people can be stunning when they make up, and my male instinct couldn't help it, but at least I am in control, not in a perverted way :'P.

Too bad time is short, as I will be staying at offiice doing paperwork next sunday, while waiting for my supervisor to come back from her raya mood. While we chat, we got to know each other's education background, and two words to sum her background up : old skool.

She studied in UiTM (mind you, 80s UiTM were different than today that produce monkeys instead of actual intellects), hand drawn, no autocadd, no measurement equipments to make her life easier. But that doesn't mean it is a clash of generation, perhaps I willing tp learn in case I live in a post apocalypse world ala Fallout, where PCs are render obsolete and all gone back to the primitives. Who knows....

While reading one's bed time story about he screwed up his first crush, it brought me back to form 6. Pathetic ? Bitter sweet ? I don't know, and I can't even remember her name anymore due to the hurt she gave to me, and only her face withstand the test of my attention span. The second one ? Succeedingly delete her contact, any form, from me, and start my life anew. Like I give a shit whatever she does now. I might be wrong, and I wish her well and won't regret her decision, which I believe......she made a right choice.

Even though I seemed to be cool about it for such a short duration of relationship, I have to admit, I didn't take it cooly, I felt angry and moody, for she ignoring me. Heck, I felt foolish too for giving her my attention, ruining my self esteem. At least, it all pass now, let it go ? I am unsure. Nothing to remember about ? Definately.

Nice guy's creed, I am living with it.

Home I am

2008-09-26T09:13:00.001+08:00

Glad to be home, and 6 months industrial training to boot.

Failfox

2008-09-17T14:07:00.001+08:00

From now on, I will stop using Firefox, and I am not coming back to you too, Internet (s)explorer. Time to time I have to tolerate this browser as it kicks me out everytime I enter a site I love, so fuck you Firefox 3, you FAIL.

Pessimistic thought of the day

2008-09-11T19:54:00.002+08:00

If you didn't start to court girls during high school (secondary school in layman's term), you are pretty much fucked, as most girls in college/universities are attached right straight from high school.

Yeah I am bitter for time being.

Stalking

2008-09-04T22:22:00.001+08:00

Nothing better to do than looking at other people minding their own business while resting from excessive revision.

finally

2008-08-29T21:19:00.002+08:00

The first semester is over, now on to final exam, then start my industrial training for 6 months, yes, till next year March.

The industrial training also a chance for me to break into the 3.0 CGPA, gotta treasure the chance I am having now, by ~~suck up~~ being polite to my supervisor. Oh yeah I got a final year project to boot too, yay.

What's up all this time ? Either too much or too few to recap, though. Overstacked assignments, some fucked up who got totally dumped by a gang for not telling them that he had a chronic disease, and heck, a few gossip or two about each other, just for the sake of it. It's good to be just a spectator of life ;P.

I finally free from everything, from clubs, assignments and commitment, yes I do see her everyday, dandy as usual, good for her, good for me, nothing to shout about, wish her luck till graduation. Year of the Mouse has never been worst, I hate it with a passion.

Weather ? Rain, finally, and it's fucking cold too. Weird shits always happen without me realising it, as I find my collection started to stack up. *sigh*

Looking forward to Year of The Cow, as a zodiac cycle ago it had been kind to me, so I hope this one can be the same.

Laters.

Let me be the first

2008-08-23T01:49:00.001+08:00

To say good bye, and godspeed, Arya Pradana.

Whatever you do in Jakarta after December, I wish you a happy life.

Cheers big guy.

wasted, seriously

2008-08-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

Here's a friend of mine :

Stop pursuing tertiary education after form 5, went straight to continue his family business of canned food distribution. After 3 years, he has few branches in KL and now he is a manager in one of the branches at the mere age of 22.

Compare to me :

Continue my tertiary studies till form 6. Got an above average STPM result. Enter UTAR and partially struggle to avoid dropping below 2.0 CGPA. Cope with assignments and course works, and few up tight lecturers. After 2 years in UTAR, I am still a fucking student trying to struggle for a pass in every subject.

Seriously, who is actually wasting time here ? You be the judge.

And I wonder

2008-08-04T02:31:00.000+08:00

Does his heart feel sad ?

I pledge

2008-07-28T00:41:00.002+08:00

I pledge that I am a nice guy. I will be the one that everyone taken for granted, and I don't expect them much for anything in return. I will be the one always finish last, not everything but mostly everything. I will be the one will hear other people's sorrow, cheering them on, while store away my own feelings in my over stuffed closet. I will be the one to have deep patience on anything, even though I will get back stab in the end. I will be the one will be looking up to the clear blue sky and screaming WHY?! but get no reply. I will be the one to observe others' merry on their lives. I will be always hope that my patience is paid off.

I am, after all, a nice guy. One can only hope, but never fulfill.

Who will watch the....

2008-07-18T20:34:00.000+08:00

Watchmen ?

I know I will

http://www.firstshowing.net/2008/07/17/must-watch-zack-snyders-watchmen-trailer-absolutely-stunning/

Look...

2008-07-17T21:59:00.002+08:00

Defence Of The Ancients is not my cup of tea. I don't care how awesome you are when you can solo 4 players at the same time time, I don't care how many Divine Rapiers you have, which is longer than your penis in the first place, I don't care how you can run around the map with Boots Of Travel with ease, I don't care how pissed you are when you were gang banged from behind by opponents, I don't care how tactical this game is, it's not my type of game at all. However I am glad you are enjoying it, cause it primary made to have fun in the first place.

But when you try to twist the facts behind how Defence Of The Ancients was created, sorry, I can't sit here and let idiots like you trample all over it.

First, here's the excerpt from the wikipedia :

Defense of the Ancients (often referred to as DotA) is a custom scenario for Warcraft III: The Frozen Throne, based on the "Aeon of Strife" map for StarCraft. The objective of the scenario is to destroy the opponents' "Ancient", a heavily guarded structure in each corner of the map. Players use powerful units known as heroes, and are assisted by allied heroes and AI-controlled fighters called "creeps". As in role-playing games, players level up their hero and use gold to buy equipment during the mission.

Everyday I learn something new. Granted it's based on Starcraft CUSTOM game. But if you insist that DoTA creates Warcraft, well, welcome to the failed boat.

Now, let's play a little FAQ.

DoTA creates Warcraft 3
Bullshit. Warcraft franchise already existed since early 90s, way before DoTA was borned. Warcraft 3 is a continuation from the franchise but with more dynamic gameplays, which mostly contribute to DoTA.

Blizzard creates DoTA
Suck my cock. If Blizzard creates it, IceFrog(you are either blind or ignorant if you never notice his name in the loading screen of your oh-my-favourite game) will sue their asses and become filthy rich. Even it becomes part of Blizzard Convention since I dunno when, BLIZZARD DOES NOT CREATE DOTA. PERIOD.

Starcraft's Hydralisk is a ripped off of Venomancer
Fuck your mother for saying that. Read the timeline. Starcraft = 1998, DoTA = 2000 (assumed the time of creation is there, not accurate, for sure it's there). Go figure.

DoTA is the most original game of all
Excuse me ? Taking elements from Starcraft, Warcraft 3, Diablo 1 & 2 and worst of all, Unreal Tournament, makes it original ? I pity the fools.

I saw many uncles, kids, and so on play it, so what they bullshit is true
So if they all eat shit, will you follow ? That's the flaw of democracy that people overlook. What they said is not always right. Check first before conclude.

DoTA will remain popular
True, but for how long, like CS, it will just fade away, sorry to burst your bubble.

Rant ends here, my god I never feel so pissed.

Sex bombs, please drop it on me

2008-07-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

I stumbled upon a thread where people discuss who, to themselves is the most beautiful woman in the world. And since I am still single I am oblige to have my own taste too, be it good or bad. Side track abit, many people have asked me what kind of girl I want ? I just don't know, not to say I am cincai, nor I am don't give a hoot, just that I have a very loose taste, as long that a girl strikes me as "hey, she's allright" and *click*. Too bad I lost that touch last year, kinda hard to regain. Anyway off to the list I have.

Umar Thurman
I always like to gawk at her for hours. SHe doesn't have make up, just plain old flesh.Besides that, I love how she exercutes her jokes in the movie, especially Pulp Fiction. Meow...

Megan Fox
Ah, a newcomer, and a booty to boot too. She's quite wild especially during her high school day in an interview, which sometimes I like to see in a girl.

Michelle Pfeiffer
Old enough to me my mother and a MILF, she's just smoking hot in Neil Gaiman's Stardust, sexy enough to beat ut her previous role as Catwoman in Batman Returns.

Gwyneth Paltrow
Mrs.Martin just look cute in Ironman, which caught me by surprise as I never fond of her due to her skinny body. And she looks good in that dress in the movie too.

Charlize Theron
My god this woman can just set me on fire just by looking, and multi-talented too.

Perhaps I have more but that's all I can think off, so off to revision i go. CIao

Pleasing both sides

2008-07-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

While driving back from Cyberjaya in the wee hour of Sunday morning, my 26 years old friend, while driving his worn out Kancil, ranted to me how dilemma he is now choosing 2 girls he "loves". Why the "" ? Well, those girls ain't some girl-next-door type, they are from mainland China, come here to work as a massage girls. Massage girls I said ? Yes, let me type again, in caps, MASSAGE GIRLS.

Anyway he continued about how he had to choose a 22 years old control freak lady or a 29 years disease-ridden-yet-hardcore-in-mahjong lady, and the problem escalated when the "captain", as he dubbed, put them together in a hotel he frequently visits somewhere in main city of Kay El to work. He was screw, so he said, as he had to choose one between the both of them and one of them will be "heart broken".

His problem had my sympathy, and worth a huge roll eyes from me. I do agree with him on few things about Malaysian girls, as they are, to me, become more and more like Singaporean. However I do frown upon his uber horny instinct for trusting the Dragon Ladies to the extent of doing everything for them. "Yes, they are materialistic, to the extent", he replied. "They are hardworking, willing to go the distance to feed their family, I feel sympathy for them, I want to get them out of the business"

By letting them suck your schlong and let you inside them every night ? Heh, talk about bullshit, sounds like a patriotic idiot wielding a rocket launcher screaming peace slogan.

I may not know much about the Dragon Ladies, nor their background, are you sure they are that easily trusted. Pardon my high suspicious antics, but this is just too easy for you my horny friend. They are massage girls for fuck's sake, prostitute themselves to earn a living. It's not like their prides are tainted or something but they are good at cheating men like you. I won't say all, but the high percentage of cheating just cannot be ignored.

All your rhetoric about trying to save them from their miseries just...laughable sorry to say. You wanna save them yet you every night go and visit them demand a massage and sex services, is that what you called saving them ? More power to you then, cause every night you get to get laid while I am sitting rushing my assignments and sometimes complain about my singlehood when I hit a raw nerf in me.

This all I can say to you cause if that's the way you can get a wife next year, then congrats, just watch your steps you horny bastard, good luck.

And btw, she messaged me, I wont get my hopes up that much anymore.

Wow

2008-07-08T05:31:00.000+08:00

Now she disappeared, just like the first one. Wow....just wow.....

Fuck you cunt.

Again

2008-07-05T18:24:00.000+08:00

Again and again and again and again.

Again, again, and again...

And it comes naturallly too.

*sigh*

Gutted as usual.

Like I care....

2008-07-04T21:04:00.002+08:00

So what Diablo 3 looks very World Of Warcraft ?

So what Diablo 3's enviroment looks so pretty and bright ?

So what Diablo 3 does not look vert gothic and gore ?

So what Diablo 3's dungeons look very clean based on just a 20 minutes awesome gameplay clip ?

So what Diablo 3 won't be the same as the 1st Diablo ?

So what fucking what Blizzard doesn't want to listen ?

The most irony of all that you want Blizzard to make this a pay-to-play games, wow, so much for a hardcore Diablo fans, how contradicting. It's better than Blizzard stay away from you all and make decision based on their observation, not listening to your suggestions.

/rant end.

Fuck YOUR DoTA and Starscraft 2...

2008-06-28T21:28:00.001+08:00

Cause the heavens shall tremble....

DIABLO 3

So far...

2008-06-19T23:18:00.003+08:00

Yeah life's good, dandy as usual, as someone told me that I used too much british words, heh.

I sleep more later than usual, eat less than usual, treating oat meal like holy water, and hey, my heart feels so good and ease.

Later I will sleep, tomorrow class at 10am, and I need all the concentration, sigh.

Beside, if tomorrow my account record goes through, I will be free of everything that has to do with club's position, and focus more my guitar.

Goodness I really need a long break for all the sacrifices I made for the club.

EDIT :

Ah, my mom just retired from being a government servant. Congrats, hope you have a happy retirement.

Whatever it is

2008-06-11T21:25:00.002+08:00

And without any bad intention, I wish him all the best, heck, who in the right mind that enjoy dating dating with massage girl while he still has another girlfriend at Mainland China. I hope he doesn't get cheated for his actions of pervertness and playboy, that's all I can ask as a friend.

Yeah

2008-06-08T20:45:00.001+08:00

They say it will come to you, but when ? WHEN you lucky fucks, WHEN ?! It's so easy for you to say cause you all already have it, just till you all lost it, then you can feel annoying it is to wait. When you motherfuckers WHEN ?!

I gave up.

Rage against the pumping machine

2008-06-05T21:12:00.001+08:00

And life as usual..

You know what ?

2008-05-29T20:18:00.000+08:00

Screw last semester, time for now !

Rebuild Of Evangelion 1.01 : You Are (not) Alone

2008-05-22T11:36:00.003+08:00

Almost 11 years of mind fucking anime, Gainax just won't stop here. Moreover Hideki Anno, the creator behind the series, wanted to update it again, not without some new scenes, dialogs, and...er...fresh.

I don't think I need to put spoiler tag, cause it's like a recap of the 26 long episodes (this one stops at Ramiel), so I don't give a shit if someone sarcastically thank me for ruining their experiences. Not my fault, and fuck you.

Anyway this is what I felt after watching it in the wee hour of morning.

- Shinji seem less emo than the old version, and to my surprise, he seems to be serious while piloting eva 01, perhaps we will see more of his antics in the next movie this year.

- Sachiel, which was considered as 3rd Angel, is labeled as fourth in this movie

- Many new scene like conversation between Ritsuko and Misato

- In this movie Misato KNOWS the angel that got crucified IS Lilith

- Rei, as always, being Rei

- Gendou, as always, an asshole

- Ramiel has never been that badass and terrifying before, thumbs up for the effort

- Fun fact : Ramiel uses the sound effect of Alien Monster from Diebuster, another Gainax's masterpiece

- 2 Liliths ?! Why the new model of Lilith is inside the central dogma while the old version of Lilith is on the moon ?!

- Kawaru shows up early, but near the ending

- Don't close after the credit, and watch out for whole new look of Eva unit 05 descending from the moon

I don't think I have the mood to give any rating, but I am looking forward to the last 2 movies, which I think Mr.Hideki will rewrite the ending of End Of Evangelion, or he might retain it but added a few new twist. Yay for more mind fuck !

Pack pack pack

2008-05-21T23:35:00.002+08:00

Time to pack, time to prepare, time to go back to KL and start my new semester.

And it's only 2 weeks and a half, what's wrong with them ? Not enough money to give us holiday ? XD

i wanna see....

2008-05-17T01:00:00.002+08:00

what kind of thing I will type at this tired condition.........

Zzzzzzzzzzz wanna sleep now but someone still has yet to reply my msn.............zzzzzzz........

Oh well screw it.

Anyway I got screwed at the last subject, as I got a D for it, so I rushed back to KL and sat for the supplementary exam, that's why I didn't online for 2 and a half day.

Anyway with that bad news aside, I received a good news, that I don't need to go to CC everyday now, as my friend managed to register streamyx line to our apartment, yay ! Porn downloading FTW !!!

Nothing to write, I feel glad and sleepy, however I got scare this mroning, and I refuse to write it, as it almost scared my mind forever. And thank goodness it isn't.

I have the urge to..

2008-05-15T16:16:00.001+08:00

Sing...yes, SING !!

WHEN I WAS, A HOMO, MY PARTNER, WILL TAKE TO THE CITY, TO SEE THE GAY PARADE...

okie, that's nasty XD.

Whoever wins, I lose anyway

2008-05-11T00:27:00.003+08:00

My friend says....

Whichever girls you choose, be it from China or Malaysia, you are fucked anyway. They are after your money and fame. If you don't live up to it, they will leave you before you can even ask why.

And just now got my confidence knocked down a few percent due to a profile I viewed (no, not through msn chat, rest assure), nevermind, I LIVE !!!!

Being in a crossroad is always exhausting, as I have to choose a path that could change people's perception on me. Some suggest change is good for me, while some think otherwise, as I am already good enough with my current condition. Granted, I ain't gonna satisfy everyone's opinion, however a certain tweak or two will wow a few people perhaps ?

One question from a song is a good question that I still can't answer, no wikipedia or urban dictionary can help with this :

"Is be yourself is all that you can do ?" AudioSlave - Be Yourself

Sleep on it ? Move on ? I did, but am I REALLY move on ? More white hair grow on my head unfortunately XD. It's never hurt to look back, as a reference for my future decisions, and this is where I stuck, on the crossroad.

Should I strive for better ? Should I learn to be dickish so I can keep up with the trend ? Am I too late and feeling left behind ? Am I a sucker ? Worst of all....

Is being myself is all that I can do ?

See first.............*sip chinese tea*

Condolences

2008-05-10T12:11:00.001+08:00

Has extended to a woman whom I never got to know better, as she passed on due to a freak accident in stormy evening 2 days ago.

Sorry.

Price to pay

2008-05-05T19:24:00.000+08:00

Exam over, and there's something I can occupy myself with for 2 weeks. Recoding account FLT.

1 more to go

2008-04-30T18:17:00.002+08:00

I never ask something from the big guy from above, never. At least tonight I want to request something from him.

Send Liverpool to Moscow, it's my favourite place.

Please.

2 more to go

2008-04-29T11:53:00.000+08:00

I start from the climax, coming down to freedom.

3 more to go

2008-04-26T00:09:00.002+08:00

And I got sore throat by eating 2 Pharmaton capsules daily without drinking enough water, man I love my mom.

4 to go

2008-04-24T00:15:00.002+08:00

The starting is crucial, as it determines your confidence level, and I managed to do the first with ease. Yay.

And lately I have been met alot of short tempered people, and I don't know how I pissed them off, or rub them in the wrong way. For sure I ain't going all apologetic to them, as I myself don't know how I made them mad, I am not their doormat anyway.

Can't wait for 3 weeks semester break, and decided to sell the rest of my TF toys, wanna streamline myself to super robots line, espacially Soul Of Chogokin.

Anyway to further cheer meself up, I found this video clip, from the wacky Kamen Rider Den-o, The Momos (my christian name for them). No I didn't watch the series, too wacky for my taste.

Comfortably numb

2008-04-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

Never feel so calm before, and my final exam is 2 days away, I hate that feeling, too calm and relax.

Food, (un)glorious food

2008-04-15T11:47:00.002+08:00

"Eh Yung, aren't you getting bored with mamak food ?!"

A good question, but it's an annoying one. I find it annoying because it reminds me of some chinese noobs who insist on eating pork, and they will whine as if without pork it's the end of their world, yes their world, how I wish it is cause they will remove themselves from the gene pool, contributing to the humanity.

Seriously why so insistence on pork ? I am scare of it, because it has whole lotta fat that I can't even taste the meat at all. I am not gonna eat pork everyday just to prove myself I am a chinese, lu siao ah ?! Li be si ah ?! cau cibai. (Are you crazy ?! Are you really desperate to die ?! Smelly cunt).

Learn to how eat other food, be it mamak or malay food, for fuck sake why stuck with only chinese food ?! Lame reason like "causing stomach unwell" is just plain immature, with an exception of allergy, which I am fine with it, as I got a slight allergy to big fried prawn. What if there's no chinese food to eat at all ? Eat your own feces ? How degrading.

Crunch time

2008-04-13T20:29:00.002+08:00

Never felt so comfortable went study group with other people, and felt satisfied at the same time.

With 7 days to go I might as well have to get down and burn midnight oil. Beside it's study week anyway.

And I forgot what to right when I thought of something this afternoon. *sigh*

Excuse me...

2008-04-10T21:43:00.000+08:00

I want my time, balls, sanity, money, confidence back please. And a big fuck you.

Come forth, weekend

2008-04-05T02:27:00.001+08:00

There's no aphrodisiac, like loneliness

2008-04-03T23:54:00.001+08:00

*long sigh*

Oh by the way

2008-04-02T01:53:00.000+08:00

I would like to apologies to anyone whom got caught by my edgy-ness, I lost it.

six words, none better

2008-04-02T01:15:00.003+08:00

Thighs cramp can't walk like normal,
Result sucks need to work harder,
Sometimes ugly does look very beautiful,
Feel like getting laid in Haadyai,
Still ashame of my own mistakes,
Thinking back, they just exciting experience,
Looking forward to the final exam,
Can't wait to finish them all,
Wanna get free from the stress,
As it seems to forever infinite,
Can't wait to spend my cash,
On something I desire for time,
Without remorse, without regret, without thinking,
Just to satisfy my buying instinct,

Oh heck, need to sleep now.

Allright......

2008-03-23T14:41:00.003+08:00

Where did I stop after layan-ing my assignments and mid term ?

Plan after plan trying to arrange my current room, and all only half succeed, sheesh -_-". But at least it still a success right ? If I am such in denial :D.

They are not just songs...

2008-03-19T01:38:00.002+08:00

Songs, the only thing that comes into people's mind is the catchy beats, and forgot the lyrics, which structure the way music flows in the first place. One must never ignore the lyrics, for it can be powerful and moving. Anyway there are some songs which I frequently listen to, as they sum up my rather complicated mind pretty well.

I Want To Break Free - Queen
Love Today - Mika
Friend Is A Four Letter Word - Cake
Hakensack - Fountain Of Wayne
Out Of My Head - Fastball
She Hates Me - Puddle Of Mud
Another Day In Paradise - Phil Collins
Teardrops - Massive Attack
Something I can Never Have - Nine Inch Nails

Listen to the lyrics, not just the beats.

I forget, so I delete.....

2008-03-18T23:16:00.001+08:00

Let by gone be by gone, cheers.

I purged the links that gone outdated, non-issues and give me more heartaches than laughters.

Haven't write a thing for a while, busy with assignments and mid term, which just ended today, another last assignment and some club reports to do, sigh.

Again, I will be selling some stuffs from my home town's cabinet, it won't be cheap, and it's a "take it or leave it" policy. If the people can change 2 weeks ago, so do I, I need start from the cabinet to earn cash so I can splash on something more expensive, at least I ain't spend on smoking, yes ?

Somehow I feel myself become abit lazy and "dick-ish". Have been treating people indifferently, quick at losing my temper, stop listening to advice and go with my instinct and mastering the art of procrastinating. Again, year of the mouse has not been kind to everyone.

Looking forward to this Thursday, can't sleep well lately.

Yet I failed to stop thinking about her...

2008-03-16T12:40:00.001+08:00

The sky has eyes, assholes

2008-03-09T12:24:00.003+08:00

- One of your goons wave that weapon in the public, screaming that idiotic verse.

- One of your goons told the media that if people don't like it, they can get out of their beloved motherland.

- One of your goons dare to build a huge mansion in a hardcore poor village, and still managed to escape the trial.

- One of your goons put their own people to shame by sucking up to you, making their roles irrelevant to their people anymore.

- One of your goons declared that your party is unsinkable.

- One of your goons declared that the party didn't need Indian's and Chinese' votes to win before election.

- One of your goons created various scandal that can match every episode in CSI.

- One of your goons can bend the judiciary to their own will.

And now for YOU

- You said you wanted the truth, yet you ordered FRU to serve tear gas and water to the people who wanted to tell you the truth.

- You declared you were "pantang dicabar"

- You slept in your work

- You were wishy washy

Oh you and your goons, after 5 years, you thought you could get away with all of them by threaten the people of insecurity and instability, the heck they scared of you, they were fed up of your incompetence. 8th of March 2008, you just got served, and a big FUCK YOU in the face.

NOTE
Dear Kedah, welcome to da club, here's a song dedication to you.

Just like any other day

2008-02-24T14:30:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to me.

I love you...

2008-02-14T18:17:00.002+08:00

I will take a chance to say how I love you my darling, as you stand by me for 2 years since I moved to KL to further my study. When I first saw you, you took my breath away. You fit me like a flesh tuxedo (yuck), when I hug you, you even never make a sound, while listen to me when I do my whining. Everytime I come back from lecturers, you lie on my bed, waiting for me to cuddle. What more can I say, you are my best companion !

So happy Valentine's day to you, my BOLSTER.

LOL WUT

Home town

2008-02-04T23:46:00.000+08:00

When you touched down at Sultan Ismail Petra Airport, you sighed with relief, as the shark fin soup and ang paos await you. Lunar New Year is coming, cheers to you all.

Falling Durian

2008-01-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

In case you didn't know, I was doing my selling of my collections (mostly Transformers) for the past 3 weeks, and I racked up more than a grand, it was quite an achievement for a person who know shit about selling.

Now with almost 85% space of my cupboard was cleared, I need to fill them up again, which means...another buying XD !! But this time I don't have to feel guilty of anything cause I will be using my earned money to do the buying. Beside the up and coming Transformers Animated & Classic 2.0, I have some die cast mechas in mind. I don't want to tell you but here's a hint : It's from Bandai, and I am targeting 2 mechas, one is older but unique, as it looks like a sentai mecha but it ain't, cause it has 4 giant armoured vehicles that can turn into animal and combine into another giant mecha, it looks weird yet cool, cause the mecha looks like wearing a helmet with 2 shoes ; while the other one hasn't out yet, only in concept art, but this giant will go all karate on you, and my older brother is so crazy about. ;)

Oh yeah I already have another mecha from the same company anyway, but it still hasn't arrive yet XP.

And with CNY around the corner, getting ang paos and add into the tally is like icing on the cake, and it couldn't get any better.

Cheers all, Happy Lunar New Year, have a great one.

And happy CNY to you too dear, even though we seem can't go back to the way we were last semester. I wish your current one all the best.

NOTE : The title is a rough translation from a BM idiom.

Well....

2008-01-27T02:18:00.000+08:00

Hannah Tan isn't as pretty as most people make out to be, but I respect her as an entertainer. What the heck, I did this just for the lolz and getting closer to her than anyone of you out there (of course, with an exception of Albert Ng).

Spring cleaning

2008-01-21T20:35:00.000+08:00

There's nothing better to do than set your own adventure into the dark corner of your room, filled with webs, dusts and empty boxes. No worries, no left over food or ~~panties~~ boxers under my bed. Cheers.

Argh....

2008-01-10T11:43:00.000+08:00

If there's anything worst in a bad dream I hate having, it is my parents don't approve of my girlfriend, my girlfriend phoned to tell me that she got knocked up by other man and she was happy about it, and I couldn't do anything to save the relationship.

And I find myself still holding to my bolster after jolting up.

Dirty secrets, but true

2008-01-04T13:33:00.000+08:00

"I might be naive or stupid, but I believe every married men got a girlfriend or two..."

- quoted from a minister who recently resigned, from Nan Yang Siang Pao

Judging from what I seen all these time, I whole hearty agreed.

Countdown to extinction..

2007-12-31T11:26:00.000+08:00

Ok a little too dramatic. 2008 is coming in less than 12 hours time. Happy ? Nervous ? Don't know what to expect ? Screw it, just let me sleep while others party all night long XD.

It's like that....

2007-12-28T21:18:00.000+08:00

When men concluded that women are easy to be lured by a jerk, everyone will be "upgrading" themselves, or rearrange themselves to be a jerks, treat women like shit to give an illusion that if they keep sticking with their men, they will change heart for the better. They can state whatever women want as a fact, I can't deny, but sooner or later women will get bored with them (even though their pheromones beg to differ), as they did to the so-called pathetic group called "nice guys".

It's like that.

Buyers knew that scalpers are bunch of people who will rip their money off real good, why they still insist in feeding them by giving in ? And then whine some more again ? Moreover, there's another asshole who only know how to critic and build his supports by cashing on people's angers. Typical politic move, but only temporary. One fine day karma will bite him back, hard.

It's like that.

People will do anything just to be first in line, to the verge of backstabbing. They keep thinking that it's a be-all-end-all situation, everything must get early or they will get left behind. They will laugh at people who didn't make it, and taunt them with their "success".

It's like that.

Damned if one do, damned if one don't. No matter what, people will hate you just for one tiny thing about you, just for the sake of it. Failed to please them ? Congrats, you are in their hate list. Failed to do what they wish ? Congrats, you ain't their friends anymore. Did your responsibility as room mate to make sure the apartment is clean ? They will tell you that you didn't belong here and want you to move out.

It's like that.

Life's like that. It's a bitch.

Happy new year.

Christmas what ?

2007-12-24T20:36:00.000+08:00

Yes, just like any other day. Oh well, at least I got what I wanted this month. Merry Christmas.

Ladies and gentleman.....

2007-12-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

Now he can stop "moyase" me for almost 2 decades.

Thank you

2007-12-20T14:54:00.000+08:00

It's all sunshine for the past 2 days, and I go back to KL safely. Seeya around.

Rain

2007-12-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

Please stop, I want to go back to KL, desperately. I need to get out of here, now !!

Next year...

2007-12-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

I can deal with that now

Le recap

2007-12-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

Again, I welcome the year of the Rat will full force cautiousness, while thinking back alot of ups and downs this year (downs > ups as usual anyway, yay).

New things learnt and casted aside, people came and went, relationship would never be the same when you wanted to become more than just friends crushed to pieces, and people still disliked you even though you never done anything to them.

Lesson learnt and experiences were cherished. First times could never be replaced for their sheer innocence and joy. Obstacles were everywhere and tripped on you anytime. Hell, I am still alive, and thankful.

That's all I can babble about like any other previous years, and I will just keep walking forward, never look back.

It's the most wonderful time of the year

2007-12-09T13:07:00.000+08:00

So as those who celebrate Christmas in 2 weeks time. I put aside my recap for now to jump on the bandwagon of Christmas fever. Christmas tree ? Checked. Lotta presents ? Checked. Christmas song play continuously by now in shopping malls ? Checked. Relatives are coming back ? Checked. ~~Condoms for couples in case they get horny in Christmas' Eve ? Checked.~~

But wait what about movies ? You all can't have a moment of togetherness without watching some classic Christmas movies, or experiencing the Christmas spirits. It's the best experience after pornography, and I am not even joking. So now this pervert will introduce, or remind you some must-see Christmas movies that remain as classic till today and perhaps forever.

Home Alone & Home Alone 2

Please keep these in your DVD shelves, it's a classic slap stick comedy that can never get bored. Macaulay Culkin stared as a kid who got left behind by his family by mistake during the holiday season, and at the same time 2 burglars tried to rob his big house, hence he must do something to protect the house, and learnt a few thing or two of Christmas spirit shites.

Die Hard 1 & 2

Yippie kai yay, motherfuckers !! This is movie anyone who crazy about action and violence for their peaceful Christmas celebration. Kinda starnge that both film are situated around before holiday season so this will be a perfect fit XD.

Nightmare Before Christmas

I pity most of the teens today who don't know Jack Skellington, instead they thought he's just another chibified skeleton. A unique masterpiece by Tim Burton, it tells a story of a nightmare town that celebrate Halloween every year, but the leader Jack Skellington wants his halloween to be different, and decided to venture out to seek new ideas, he eventually stumbled into Santa town and like the way of the celebration, hence he took over and chaos ensure. Even though it's kids friendly, the atmosphere is gothic at best.

Christmas Carol

Need I say more ? You can also catch a newer version acted by Patrick Steward.

The Snowman

Don't you remember that cartoon ? It remains as a must-watch-during-Christmas at Britain.

Anyway that's all I have in mind, and a merry Christmas to you who read it.

It's almost at the end

2007-12-09T00:43:00.000+08:00

There's 2 or 3 more weeks to the year of 2008, and the Chinese zodiac comes full circle, so say hello to the year of the Rat. It reminds me of 1996 alot, bad memories I tell you, especially at primary school, where I had my first experience of being in a so-called elite class. Stuck up mandarin teacher, who constantly punished me for my hand writing, bad math results and mandarin (I still speak like a fucking Chinese today, eat that, bitch !! I hope you choke). I was also humiliated by girls for my hand writing, my overweight body and my clumsiness. Can they blame me for my slowness in adapting to this hostile environment at the young age ? I got last place for countless times at every exam, hence like any English soccer teams that performed badly, I was relegated to a so-called failure class on the next year, which I can say I never regret at all for dropping out of "elite class", for I recovered my freedom.

Comparing today's me and the 10 years old me, I amazed how I have changed. I still talk to the same girls who embarrassed me almost a decade ago without any hard feelings (and I have better life than them I dare say), I can take all the shit people throw at me, I am mature enough, and conscious enough to know what I am doing, and lastly my hand writing is still remain pretty.

So why I am worried ?

Perhaps it's my instinct, I hate to trust my instinct, for it always wrong. However I can't help but being cautious for next year, especially my health and safety, that's what according to someone's prediction to my zodiac (if you don't know yet, I was borned in the year of Tiger, that's why I like pussy so much). If my life can be that suck 11 years ago, it could happen again next year, to ruin my life, beside my already ruin relationship, which "that person"predicted that those who are single will remain that status for the rest of the year.

So should worry too much ?

No way. I got my studies and my hobbies to focus on. I have been gradually increasing my confidence and courage to do things. I believe I am better prepared, I believe I will expect the unexpected, I believe I can be optimist about my life ahead next year. If things got me down, I will stand up again, like I always do, for my luck has always been hard since birth. I am slow, but I am not retard. I know what I am doing.

Bring it, bitch.

Now I got this out of my chest, I will continue this looking back by recap my life in 2007. Laters.

Yea yea

2007-12-08T09:39:00.000+08:00

Hillsborough disaster is a sad event, I feel bad about it, and it's sucks that the 96 never came home that day, include that cunt's cousin. Rest in piece.

With all due respect, so what ?

Nanking's massacre makes it looks like a Darwin Award material.

It's a matter of choice for people which they prefer to grief on, and I choose the others.

Jingle my bells all the way

2007-12-01T15:35:00.000+08:00

Christmas is coming, and I am not a christian ~~and I preach satanic~~, so what ? I gonna jump on the bandwagon to splash some moolah on things that I want without remorse and without nagging from other people. Before Christmas I have got what I wanted, like Ipod and NDS Lite, so be glad that I only have few things on my mind right now, the most important one is....

Soul Of Chogokin Baikanfu

It's normal for anyone to mistaken it as Gordian, and it's not. First thing first Soul Of Chogokin is a hardcore collectors' line. It AIN'T a toy for kids, cause a SOC figure is full with more than 50% of die cast, a epitome of awesome toy engineering It will cost me around RM 400, which is surprisingly cheap for a set of 3 figures plus some small ones. At least I am not gonna splash more on a SOC figure, which is the answer to Transformers' Fortress Maximus. It weight around 1.1 Kg when combined.

Super Robot Wars 100 scale Al Teisen

If there's anything that get me back to model kits, is this, not Gundam. At least 100 scale is a range for me who don't know how to paint. At least I know how to scrap off the excessive plastic parts with plier and sandpaper.

So that's all for my wishlist, and a early merry Christmas to all christians out there, god speed.

Cartoons (redone)

2007-11-24T11:14:00.000+08:00

Dammit I have to redone again, as putting up more than 5 youtubes cause the whole site to crash. Might as well put links.

When you say "I like cartoons" at the age of 21, people will stare at you, like you announced that you switch gender or worst, embracing homosexual life. There's one bitch called Angeline Wong summed it up pretty blunt 5 years ago.

"What for you still watch cartoons ? You are already adult, you should watch something adult now, not cartoon. Ish..."

I wish I could bitch slap her bad, I hate her till now. Just don't let me see you.

It's kinda ironic that they themselves enjoy watching cartoons too when they were kids. Even though they out grown it, why force others to do so ? These days cartoons are pretty much poke fun at adults, not even in way of Simpsons, Family Guy or South Park. Anyway let's start with some older toons from the late 80s and 90s. Early 80s cartoons are too much, so I will be at risk of being yelled "why didn't you add this awesome toon ?!". I have to narrow down so I won't tired myself out, rest you can find to discover them yourself.

Animaniacs

Seriously, before Anime, there's Animaniacs, a masterpiece by Steven Spielberg. It's a series consisted of many wacky mini series inside one episode, one of the mini series was quite famous : Pinky And The Brain, don't you remember ? The series was successful though, capped with 5 seasons. Wiki.

Freakazoid

Another masterpiece by Spielberg himself. I don't know what crack he was on, the show became my instant favourite just by the intro XD. The story is about a boy got zapped into cyberspace and infected with some 1337 codes to become a superhero, a crazy one. Unlike Animaniacs, this only ended with one season, quite sad though. Wiki.

Ghostbusters

Do not confused with other one, and I pity the fool who never watch this.The animation for this one was cutting edge, even till this day it looks brand new. Moreover, the ghosts in the show were creepy as hell, even though it was for kids. Even though I enjoy the new Extreme Ghostbusters, their ghosts are somewhat... ain't scary, as they are being gore for the sake of it. Oh did I tell you that I used to have Marshmellow doll too ? *teehee*

Mighty Orbots

Come on, at least you remember that fatso who eats garbage. A short series though but it's one of those 80s mecha that stood out after Voltron (yes the voice over is none other than Peter Cullen himself, who voices the mighty Optimus Prime) and Transformers.

Duckula

Maybe this is one is easier to remember. This cartoon was another poke at the most workshipped goth idol. The series started with the resurrection that gone all wrong when one of His servant added ketchup instead of real blood, made him turn into a VEGETARIAN. Hilliarity follows where the "vemp" goes.

Sharky And George

Bloody hell you never seen on TV3 every Tuesday ?! SHAME ON YOU. Anyway the series is all about detective's all in a day works, under the sea that is. I really enjoyed the noir of the series, not so dark, yet so entertaining.

Disney at the 90s, to me, was at their best. Series like Darkwing Duck, Goof Troop, Quack Pack and Bonkers made me glued to TV almost every afternoon when I finished my homework. Too bad today disney is all about dramas, movie based cartoon series and Kim-possible, never like them anyway.

While most cartoons above are kids friendly, there's one, and I wanted to write this for a while, go way beyond digusting and abnoxious at best : Spunko's Ren & Stimpy. The story is simple : everyday life of the retarded cat Stimpy and control freak chi hua hua Ren. And I can just piss you off by singing this song :

Rocko's Modern Life

It's softer than its counterpart, but hit on life hard. Gotta cartoon when it tries to be funny and dark at the same time.

Anyway enough with the old cartoons, there are some newer ones that stand out among the rest.

Avatar The Last Air Bender

The Batman

Teen Titans

Justice League Unlimited

Legion Of Superheroes

And last but not least, next year most anticipated one, and it need no introduction.

I partially give up on anime, as I don't have the enthusiast to chase them. Even though I do watch them, I only watch either the old one or go with the average of one anime per year. Lucky Star is not as great as people make out to be. Full of dialog, and I believe people watch it just to see Konata's face at every 24 episodes.

That's all. Laters.

Thank you

2007-11-23T12:39:00.000+08:00

Thank you Croatia for kicking out one of, if not, the most pompous fuck team in the world. Inbred swines, bunch of them, thinking themselves as talent and world class while most of them never even travel outside their motherland in the first place.

Euro 2008 is gonna be a beautiful day without those lots who are just a bunch of attention seeking kids. We won't miss you, cunts.

Oh noes, not this....

2007-11-21T11:20:00.000+08:00

"Girls who are boys who like boys to be girls who do boys like they are girls who do girls like they are boys...."

- Blur, taken from their single 'Girls And Boys'

When it comes to gender wars, I avoid it like a plague. I deem it childish and immature just to debate which gender is superior. Hell, can't they realised that one can't exist without the opposite sex, or let's just a very, very blunt question.....WHY THE FUCK DID YOU BORN WITH A GENITAL IN THE FIRST PLACE, BE IT A MEAT STICK OR A VOLCANIC CANYON, IF YOU ARE SO AGAINST OTHER GENDER ?!

Now I got this out of the way, I want to write something else, it's out of topic yet still connect to the childish war. I read somewhere about a female blogger, who managed to post up her friend's diary, about how she suffered under her badboy-type boyfriend starting from a relationship till marriage. Now that she's pregnant and she wants out cause she couldn't stand at that man's attitude and family anymore, yet she still stuck with them. I don't want to post the link, as I assume that that post got ping like mad.

Now I want to play as a devil's advocate, which is another excuse I want to hide behind to flame that poor girl.

First of all, put aside the pity for her, why she chose him in the first place ? The way she wrote her diary never told how she met him, only started with her marriage life and how the man's family treated her like shit during the preparation of marriage. That man, of all men, has the most obnoxious attitude that Gods of the Underworld would like to have, yet she still stay with him after all this time ? Silly girl. (Stupid is a word too strong to describe her)

That brings me to another matter : Girls like bad boys. There, I admit it after reading The Game (half way, I decided to put down, not to read anymore), but can't I blame them ? No, it's their pheromones, they see "confidence" in them with their rowdy behavior, just like the case above. She been treated beyond low class, her in-laws insulted her family, her husband did not support her, and she STILL stuck with him ? I don't understand the logic here. I wonder whether it's their bad luck or their hormones do the talking to find their mates.

It may not be true for others but that's just me, cause I always read news about most girls complain about how they are treated lowly by their opposite sex, and again complain that good men are, you guessed it, too good for them. Some got knocked up and looking for abortion, I have no remorse to say serve them right in their faces. Heh, I couldn't turn back time now, so if I could, I want to flunk my exam, play truant, smoke, and kick my school teachers around, cause my dad is a principal *rawr*. But it's too late now, perhaps I should stop thinking about it after I finished this and do my own things.

Things I learnt from Singapore

2007-11-20T17:00:00.000+08:00

- The only land that the Malaysian Government owned is the Tanjung Pagar Railway Station.

- The city is very KL-like, only more tail buildings

- You can't see the sky with all those tall buildings blocking it

- Orchard Road is like Bukit Bintang's obese sister

- Malls here make KL's Mid Valley, 1 utama look like a kids' playground

- There's a durian building that specially built for theater

- Ang Mo Kio Road is funny

- My aunty doesn't fit into my singaporean stereotype list, which is a damn good thing

- People got freaked out when the flooded area is 5cm deep.

- I failed to find the sea lion statue

- Most Singaporean still speak in mandarin

- Their motor plate is cool , as they start with "F".

- Singaporean don't give shit about traffic rules, unless there's police around

- Eating vegetarian food for 3 days open a whole new chapter of ~~nightmare~~ delight

~~-I miss masturbating :(~~

- My uncle opened a vegetarian restaurant at, of all places, Geylang Road -_-"

- Churches are every where, must be burnt down

- I have a whole new relative there, my mom's side espacially

- KTM trying to rip off singaporean, and they underestimate their "tenglang" power

- Kastam never tax me for my toy purchasing

- Train > cows

-I got sore throat for eating too much vegetarin dishes

Chu chu kiasu

2007-11-16T19:40:00.000+08:00

Right in few minutes time I will hope on the ~~hoe~~ train to Singapore, my first trip outside Malaysia. Will be back at Thursday morning.

I am not English, and I am not even a Scouser

2007-11-16T10:51:00.000+08:00

Wanted to write this for quite some time, but I lack the temper to do so. However, thanks to lao yeh dot net, my temper has been recharged and ready to go ! Let the biased rant begins.

I, Yung Jie, hold no secrets that I supported Liverpool since I was nine. However it was not love at the first sight, it was more of an influence by my older brother who seemed to have saw the light and don't care anything but his missus. I started as a RED DEVIL supporter. You heard that right, I WAS a Manchester United fan. My brother realised it and decided to declare state of emergency on me, bombarded me with some history lessons about The Kop. Who can blame a 9 years old cibai kia whose pathetic mind can be easily twisted and molded ? So I jumped ship eventually. I still remember how he wanted me to take a vow to support Liverpool all my life, which it's a regret to me....partially ;). Come to think about it, *ego*no wonder my history is somewhat awesome and sexy*ego*.

Years go on, up and down, under Roy Evans, then the fallen great Gerrad Houllier and lastly (in a good way) the magnificient Mr.Rafa Benitez, Liverpool has faltered, and then prospered till now, not without the same old English mentality of "We can win t3h trophy this seas0n !!!11111oeneoneone". I still love Liverpool. I almost kicked my TV when Liverpool lost its one goal lead in FA Cup against Manchester United who went on to win their incredible treble in 1999, I sulked for 3 days when Steven Gerrard hit an own goal against Chelsea 2 years ago in FA Cup Final(or league cup ?), I cheered when Liverpool went on a winning spree, and yes, I cried like a prawn when Liverpool made THE comeback of all comebacks against AC Milan in 2005 UEFA Champions League Final. Thanks for the memories, Kop.

But then, with all my love for Liverpool, I also harbour fair share of dislike(hatred will be a strong word for this) against the team, and the fans, the local fans. While for the English, the REAL Scousers, they can continue their derby rivalry or ultimate rivalry for all I care, I enjoy watching their rivalries though, but it can't be applied the same on the local fans. Seriously, I borned in Malaysia, I don't have any sense of Scouse, let alone a bloodline, what gives them the fucking divine right to claim themselves as one ? I hate the word "we", I hate it with passion, as everytime people use it I feel like I am grouped with most of those arrogant pricks out there. Full of themselves, laughable demands for success, and best of all, like someone said, they "memang mudah lupa", that's "easy to forget" for those who don't know BM. They sometimes even hackle those who remain neutral or support more than one football club, forcing to choose one, that's beyond childish. They are quick to judge Mr.Rafa when he screwed by putting the blame on his rotation policy, which is such an easy target, and easy to analysis for most football "pundeks" out there. Did I mention how much I hate they using "mate". Sorry people, sometimes overused words just get on my nerve. Their shit talking only make them no where different than other fans, whom they labeled as hypocrites and jealous. No wonder my dad hates Liverpool so much.

I wonder how they are able to communicate with others, espacially those who support Manchester or, heaven forbid, (n)Everton ? Are they going to taunt them everytime they meet just for some plain kopitiam session ? Maybe I think too much. Am I a fan of the Kop ? Yes. Would I like to join those idiots to talk shit other teams everyday ? No. I prefer to talk about the players current form, be it Liverpool's or Man.Utd's, glad that I have one Man.Utd bloke that love to do so. I doubt even those English can be as rowdy as these monkeys here. Heck, even the usage of "We are not English, we are Scouse" sentence in their local forum ticked me off, hence the title above. Dude, you are a Malaysian, not some blokes who can speak England so powderful that I can't hear shit. In fact, we are the one that actually follow their system since colonisation.

I am sure anyone who read this, espacially those hardcore one, will straightly label me "not a real fan" or writing this as an act of treason. Heh, I rather be in a communist country than joining them monkey ranks. However I stand on my ground that I love Liverpool, I love it in my own way. Now scram Scouser wannabes.

Friends, foes......whatever

2007-11-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

"What do you have few friends, Jie ?" Asked my dad

"Having too many friends also a bad thing, no ?" I replied. He nodded in agreement, or so it seems.

It's kind for him to worry my social life, in a very contrast to my brother, who seem have alot of friends from my dad's point of view. Granted, he's has alot of and I don't, so ? Did I failed according to his criteria ? Sorry.

Perhaps I would like to elaborate further. I make friends by sharing my thoughts, my hobbies and my interests, not changing myself to become a whole different person in order to join them. My course mates ain't that bad, just that my interests vary from them, however we still able to communicate "at least". I am sorry to be harsh but, I am not trying to impress them to their pleasure in order to join the rank. Sorry, that's not what I wanted to be, a different person, by sacrificing things that what me today, no siree. I am not gonna make a bitch/asshole happy by sucking up to them so I can be in their league. I ain't force them to like me, nor respect me, no ? To each their problem, as between me and them, we have to stand each other for the next 2 and a half year if they don't like me. Perhaps fate or my luck, most of them don't fit into my over thinking criteria, we still work together in a project last semester, or forced to included me (again, over thinking, bad bad), but I didn't sense any dishonesty among them. Perhaps I should talk more, or they are just some typical people with mentality of grouping with people whom they known for long time, let's see how it goes. But I can't deny they are hard working and bright.

I do have friends, yes from the first glance I looked like I have very few, I blame my weird habit of "hardly talk", cause I like to observe by far before jumping in. If I don't have one, what do I join clubs for ? How can I go through shitty situation without any help from others ? And best of all, how can I still maintain my sanity till today ? Because I DO have friends, it's just I hardly talk, I like to listen to them, that's all. I am human too, I need companion, no man is an island,
it's just the way I make friend.

Yet I also prepare myself for the situation of "people come and go". They will be my friends for today, but they might turn into an assholes by tomorrow. Gloomy isn't it ? I am just being realistic here. Or perhaps I am only half right so I don't hold to it as a principal, just a gentle reminder to myself across my life.

Dear "The Man"..

2007-11-10T17:17:00.000+08:00

How long ? How long are you going to bury your head under the ground and remain in denial ? How long are you going to twist ? How many tricks do you have in your sleek ? You know how those swines in Animal Farm end up, no ? Your time's up, sir, what goes around comes around, it's only a matter of time.

Oh the irony part deux

2007-11-09T10:26:00.000+08:00

I wonder I will get myself behind the cells for singing both of this song in Singapore.

That's it

2007-11-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

I have to accept it. The more I think about it, the more gutted I feel. Perhaps not in this life time, maybe next life will be better.

When I look at the mirror...

2007-10-30T02:02:00.000+08:00

I am glad that I make it this far. Be it good or (mostly) bad times, I endure it. Even though I am still walking in a blurred line whether I have changed or not, reaching this far is a accomplishment.

I wish I can do better. Perfectionist inside me has been screaming for more. Expectations run as high as the sky. Curses and blame are the escape I can make when things don't go my way.

I question myself. Whys and what ifs fill me the most, like playing chess, which I am suck at.

I look total bore, and tired of it. May the time's remains be sent to time's graveyard, forever buried, forever forgotten.

Curtain down....

2007-10-26T11:44:00.000+08:00

Sooner or later Playstation 2 (PS2) will be replaced with the "black elephant" , before it bows out, I want say thank you for all the awesome games you have provided, even though my brother just bought you 2 years ago.

Anyway I might create a list of games that you should buy, and should avoid for the platform. For now, let me play my guitar untill I am ready....