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Taken from someone who is blood related to me :

Zombies. That's what we should be called or as the Chinese would say, "jom-bee". Despite all the blows we suffered, crippled and shot at, we just keep coming back for more. And we're always right behind you, around the bend. No rainbow's end or your Huckleberry friend waiting. Just us, cold and ugly. One slip and we will pounce. Part vampires, part warriors, carnivores and voyeurs, we shall pursuit, picking and pulling, trying to get our fingers in. Alas, we will always be those melodramatic fools, the geek that will never get the dream girl no matter how hard he tried, the Ennis Del Mar that can't quit Jack Twist, the wolf that blew on the brick house, the coronary thief that stole one heart too many and like all zombies in fictions, we will get our heads blown to smithereens in the end and you got away. I am afraid the same case scenario will be applied yet again this time around, just like every other time. Oh we have gotten used to this Hollywood script-ending. But meanwhile, we just refused to die and we're sticking around a little longer this time. Scared you didn't we? How about a trip down the wire for maximum horrifying pleasure? We'll be there and we hope you enjoy the trip as much as we do so hang on! We provide more dramas than all Hokkien soap opera put together. We're zombies, bastards like us just won't stay down. We're specialists in hope.

Signed,
*edited*
a Liverpool fan

Kinda surprise coming from a person who has almost everything and label me a loser for not having a girlfriend yet.

Still, the bad timing haunt me, and might be endless.

With sappy songs in the back ground

And the surrounding is pitch black with only the LCD screen as my only source of light, what should think of ?

Various choice I can make :

Go to sleep

Read Interview With The Vampire and then go to sleep

Browse youtube and then go to sleep

Watch a movie and then go to sleep

Listening to some MP3s and then go to sleep

Delete this blog and then go to sleep

Think back some memories before go to sleep

Hug my bolster for minutes and doze to sleep

Turn on air con and doze off to sleep

and on

and on

and on......

Many choices, one can be chosen, just like an Role Playing Game, every choice has an impact on your destiny to either greatness, or downfall.

I do think of her actually, even though things started to fade away.

And I might have thought...

Righht I am feeling drowsy as I just woke up from my nap.

My training report had been successfully arrived into my supervisor's hand, and it was at Monday or tuesday, talk about fast !

Will be off to Alor Setar for the first time in 3 years, I missed the dim sum there. Might be next 2 weeks.

Still thinking about the choice to either owrk at KL or here.

Bah I am still wanna lie down even though i had my dinner, play game first.

Snail mail

Today I mailed my industrial training report down to KL. POS Malaysia said that it will take minimum 4 days to reach there. Four days ? I am sure hope so cause my dead line is this saturday. Moreover, instead of using POS laju, my dad suggested me to use AR registeration, as to make sure that my report is comfirmed received in their hands and the confirmation card will be sent back to me as proof. In case anything go wrong, they will not blame me for my late delivery.

Bah, I have been taking a nap at evening alot lately, and go online till 3 or 4 am in the morning, so yeah I still feel all groggy from the nap and might type stupid things, anytime now.

Obladi oblada

Oh finally, training is over, and I had done my report and it is only a matter of printing it out and become a scrapbook. Cheers for myself for finished it early so I can rest with a peace of mind.

Heck, I almost got screwed by my own supervisor of the company by gave me a rating of "fair" and "poor". Now now I am aware that I am not as experienced as her, what did she expect me of ? a computer? beside my CGPA is on the line here. Luckily I took the matter to the executive manager and both us kept this as confidential after he rearranged the rating. Period. Here I would like to thank him for his patience and understanding, hope I am not letting you down for the last 6 months :'D.

For the past 6 months I did feel like a frog inside a well, unaware of what had happened in my surrounding, be it politics, or news about my friends & course mates.

Next I will be travelling to Alor Setar with my mom after 11th of April, and god damn I must have their dim sum till I become obese, it is been 3 years I stopped going there.

Oh yeah tell me, what should do with my bank account that has over rm5000 worth of money ?

Look ! Time flies by..

Oh my, I seem to neglect this for a month, oh dear oh my god, oh your god and everybody's god, and all we want is shady lanes. Sue me for repeating the song every minute, it sent me back to the good old 90s.

Officially, I have 2 more months to go for my training, and I already kick start my final report. Yes, I have tendency to finish quick so I can enjoy my REAL holiday, however I have to constantly remind myself that being quick doesn't mean the road is smooth, *sigh* need to check my spellings and toeing the line set by the formats.

Chinese New Year is same as last year, very quiet, and I wanted to sleep almost all day due the exhaustion of my training. Good thing that the manager is cool and would like to tie me here discuss my future in the company when I graduate next year.

Now here's the dilemma. Kota Bharu is my home town and I bloody love it, but I will be lying if I don't say this town is boring and for the better words, lack pf privacy. Granted, construction progression is gradually building, be it big or small, I just can't feel the developement. I wanted to work at KL to gain more experiences and most of all, all my friends are there, I want to enjoy going down the city every saturday (or sunday if I start working) and satisfy my hobbies. Beside, even though I never enjoy "cuci mata" much, finding a girlfriend, as desperate as I can get, is slim here.

But here's the catch.

Next year won't guarantee the economy will bounce back for this forsaken country, living expense will be sky rocket as expected, and I am reluctant to waste my parents money. Enough is enough, I need to stop relying on their resources. Easier said than done, I might crawling back to their arms and ask if I am in deep financial trouble (no gambling and joli-ing, mind you, I am still very kampung-ish).

This is a very hard choice I have to make. Oh well I shall see if I want to sacrifice my freedom for a job which is already waiting for me here, or sacrifice my sanity to pursue my luck in KL. Not sure whether I am the one that actually living a very very comfortable life, am I ?