The Discrimination King.....with teeth

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Rain and frustration

Everytime I want to jog, the sky darkens, when I do otherwise, it shines like fuck. And it has been continue for 2 weeks since I came back. I better get my back a dumb bells and do a routine push up, can't rely on apple juice all the time.

Anyway my training has been smooth so far, and finally beat the curse of "D", as I passed all my subjects, hooray for me.

Checking out the Facebook, people can be stunning when they make up, and my male instinct couldn't help it, but at least I am in control, not in a perverted way :'P.

Too bad time is short, as I will be staying at offiice doing paperwork next sunday, while waiting for my supervisor to come back from her raya mood. While we chat, we got to know each other's education background, and two words to sum her background up : old skool.

She studied in UiTM (mind you, 80s UiTM were different than today that produce monkeys instead of actual intellects), hand drawn, no autocadd, no measurement equipments to make her life easier. But that doesn't mean it is a clash of generation, perhaps I willing tp learn in case I live in a post apocalypse world ala Fallout, where PCs are render obsolete and all gone back to the primitives. Who knows....

While reading one's bed time story about he screwed up his first crush, it brought me back to form 6. Pathetic ? Bitter sweet ? I don't know, and I can't even remember her name anymore due to the hurt she gave to me, and only her face withstand the test of my attention span. The second one ? Succeedingly delete her contact, any form, from me, and start my life anew. Like I give a shit whatever she does now. I might be wrong, and I wish her well and won't regret her decision, which I believe......she made a right choice.

Even though I seemed to be cool about it for such a short duration of relationship, I have to admit, I didn't take it cooly, I felt angry and moody, for she ignoring me. Heck, I felt foolish too for giving her my attention, ruining my self esteem. At least, it all pass now, let it go ? I am unsure. Nothing to remember about ? Definately.

Nice guy's creed, I am living with it.


 
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