Fairy tales....

Will always remain as it should be . Fictional, predictable, and the forever happy ending. When tries to apply in real life, it's like try to apply physics theories on chemistry.

Who wouldn't hope for a happy segments ? A boy meets a girl, he likes her, spark in his heart got ignited and the rest is history (yes, making babies included). Happy segments are like candy, once taste it you just can't resist and keep on hoping that the taste will last forever. You hope that you will marry that girl after dating for 6 years, you hope that you can give everything she desires, in the end is you willing to have children with her, like 4 or 6 or more kids, boys & girls, a big family, smilling at your mate while those children run pass by throwing cow dung at each other.

Here's a catch : All these fairy tales are only projected inside your head, and you didn't share with the one you liked. You never confess, you never utter any hint to her, you just play along, trying to find a good timing to do so. Other people told you it was the time to do so but no, you still think the opposite. You drove her to library, you listened to her problem and be her adviser, you always sms-ed her daily, or even twice or thrice a week, you still think it was not the time to confess.

In the end, she ran away, ran away with a man you considered a bastard. You felt betrayed yet felt guilty that you should have done this and that. You wanted to cry but your eyes can only offer dry tears, you wanted to shout but you questioned the action, you wanted to believe that she will return, that's fucking laughable. After all, you will never see her again, you felt your heart became a hollow cave, spark was no where to be seen, and your hair become untidy. For 6 months you went on your life after that, even though you have rebuilt your shattered heart, the pathetic scar still there, as a grim reminder of how you should not put too much effort to it.

Monsoon....it just bring out memories, lots of them.