I got sick. I got food poisoning yesterday. Luckily it ain't that bad, I managed to stop throwing up and frequently stop by at my apartment's toilet. Goodness gracious it never felt so terrible as I can even hardly breath when I felt like throwing up.
Now my whole body ache, or more precise my muscle, due to constant vomitting, jerking the muscles by force and fast.
Really, what am I waiting ? I am waiting for......a wait. A wait can make me wonder many things. A wait for who, a wait for what, how to wait, and best of all, why wait ? Wait is unpredictable but the only I am sure is waiting is risky. I don't know how long will I wait, I don't know when it will end, I don't know what's the result will be.
Wait is good, wait is bad, wait some more will drive me mad. I like waiting, I hate waiting, even all this it left me more wanting. Should stay or should I go, cause waiting left me don't know what to do.
Released on this very day last year, the game touched my soul ever since. Still holding the record breaking 6 times, this is the game I played the most, outbeat Shadow Of The Colossus. Created by now-defunct Clover studio, the game tells a story in ancient Japan, where the place suddenly void of colour due to revival of Orochi (8 headed monster in Japanese), a goddess names Sakuya uses all her left over power to revived Ammaterasu, goddess of the sun, to fight back the evil and restore the colour. Accompany by a tiny midget called Issun (one inch in Japanese), they set out to an unforgettable adventure throughout Nippon.
The graphic showed how awesome PS2's engine was, with cel shading technic, the motion were surreal yet animated at the same time. What blows me away is the fighting system. Instead of the usual hack and slash technic, Ammaterasu, as a god, can switch to brush painting method AT WILL to do anything against a monster, like slash it, draw a grenade beside it or even blow them away literally by drawing a wind !! Can't get what I say ? Here some of the clips.
The fight system is just out of this world, I never felt so breath taking after Prince Of Persia : The Sand of Time, as you can reverse your mistakes at will too.
And you know why this game hold so dear to me ? It made me shed man's tears. The ending caught my emo off guard, and I cried for a game for the first time. Spoiler for those who haven't finished yet.
It's a beautiful ending imo. Unfortunately things ain't rosy for Clover studio, as Capcom decided to shut down the studio after the creator for this game has left, leaving games like Devil May Cry 4(will be release in PS3 soon anyway) in the balance. It was a heart breaking news for me as Clover created many innovative AND original games like God Hand, Viewtiful Joe and DMC series. Rest in peace Clover.
But all is not over, as the very same creator has opened a new game studio called Seed. I will buy PS3 just for them if they come out their first game soon.
Cheers and happy birthday Ammy, you cute doggy you.
No. PC gaming is not dead, it's just the consoles war hugging all the headlines. Like rock & roll, they just can't die, and isn't it ironic that most console games are made from using computers themselves, no ? Some idiots just too blind too see, or too orgasm to realized.
No. I don't want to meet her. Even she's really sweet and hot just like what some said to me in msn, no, I don't want to meet her. Beside, why should he let me see her anyway, brag ? Gonna admit her present will open up my old wound anyway. I still acknowledge their happiness, until death do them part.
No. I will not bow down to his pressure. If he wants to fail me, so be it. There's more to life than facing his subject and seeing him courting slutty girls in lecture hall every week. I hope he rots in hell for being biased and cunt.
No. I want to enjoy playing lastest games, not showing off my lastest rig. What's the point if you only have the zomg GeForce 8800 (or more than that I assumed) card without mobo, keyboard, mouse, etc ? Hah.
No. I still hold dear to the memories. It's precious. I can't let go.
No. I won't be regret for what I have done. I rather regret for what I have not done.
No. You just don't get it why I always do thing the "hard" way, cause that's your definition of "hard". What if I say yours is the same ? So don't shove your "facts" into my throats. I may not be always right, nor genius, at least I know what I am doing.
No. I gonna be myself, even if I am changing I still remain the root of me. Always be your guardian, always be your asshole.
And lastly, no. I still can't forget you. Yes, YOU. ;)
Sometimes my tongue always got tangle, every time I say "Barbie", my ears will hear it as "babi", worst comes to worst I was chatting with a friend from Indonesia while when walking in Time Square yesterday.
Another thing is French words, they are weird, aren't they ? While went shopping with choir members at Sunway, one girl said to others "jom, let's go to Voir". It's supposed to be "VO-AR", right ? I heard her said "voyeur" -_-".
Some affected me emotionally as well, couple who happen to live in the same apratment, always teasing each other. Girl always let out a high pitch yell, as if they are....erm....for the lack of better term, going for it. :O
It's weird that I am feeling damn relax instead of nervous, must have gone numb. It's exam tomorrow FFS !!
Can't wait for exam, I am stressing out here. The wait is tormenting, meh.
Anyway good luck to all those who is currently sitting or soon to sit the exam next week. Cheers and good luck.
Anyway my 3 months of semester break might be busy. After one month break, octorber that is, I will be coming to city for choir practise, them pricks just love each others, don't they ? I stay for the girls too, kinda miss them, and always wanted to do a William Hung *shake bon bon*.
Then at December, I might go to Kota Kinabalu as invited by the owner of the music club. If everything goes smoothly, it will be my first ride of aeroplane in a decade(now you see how katak di bawah tempurung I am ?). Can't wait though, get to find some pretty kadazan prostitues see the beautiful jungles and seas there, and oh how can I forgot Malaysia's tallest genitalia mountain too ?!
There it's that busy yet fun though. For now I need to lay low and revise. Somehow KK got me thinking : will I meet her there ? It's been a year and she was married. I am torn between, whether I want to say hi to her as her loyal friend or flame her like some assholes due to her "ungratefulness" (IMO). I used to like her anyway yet can't bring myself to confess, as being principal's son who manage under MY school couldn't be anymore suck.
But alas, all pass is pass, at least I redeem myself, even it's not work out, so thank you for making me feel alive, even for a short time. Ima treassure it for now, as it's bitter sweet. heh.
Books, notes, tea, sad songs, table lamp, radio, laptop, toys, pillows, sweater, boxes, fruit punch, dustbin, hair, guitar, why, what, when, huh, calculator, cord, NDS, W800i, windows, sunny day, nostalgia, I missed you, I loved you, I still love you, porn flicks, novels, graphic novels, Fable, DVDs, Find Me Guilty, Belaian Jiwa, anok kelate come sokmo, invited to KK, zomg, will I meet her, no I don't want to, deep scar, can't heal, betrayal, hate her, still love her, ungrateful fuck, bitter, sweet, memories, jealousy, desperate, lonely, single, blurred line, confused, do not want, do not want, do not want, do not want......stop it.