I have enough

I can wait. I can wait for anything. I can wait for people who late to show up. I can wait for people to come and have a group study with me. I can wait for restock if you know what I meant. I can wait for fucking ages to get my streamyx. I am too considerate. I always think of others. I am over not selfish. They make me wait. They make me wait for ages. And then they come tell me that they can't make it. I can't stand it. I feel like hitting them. I want it to go my way. Now I don't to answer everything. Not my hp. Not my email. Not my IM.

Fuck you. Fuck you all. Fuck you all for making me wait. You think it's fun to wait ? You think it's fun to tell me at the last minutes that you can't make it ? Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.

Need to start smoking...

To get quote like this (it's from abook anyway)

Whether it's hooking up or screwing around, I want to experience it throughly;

Like others,

As much as others,

More than others.....

Feelings R' US

Relieved, as all the hellish tasks were completed. Now I can focus on my study, my guitar and my voice box, as this week I am going to Batu Pahat for the choir competition. Wish me luck.

Ignorant, as yesterday is Chinese calendar's Valentine's Day. Spin you the story quick, every year at seven day of July (chinese calendar), a horny cow herd with meet up a maiden from heaven, as they were cruelly seperated by the maiden's bitchy mother. Luckily I do so, as the couples' affection towards each other is tormenting me.

Chilling, with Hungry Ghost festival almost near, sky is damn gloomy and the constant raining create such a atmosphere just to make you feel there's spirits nearby. Hi there !!

Tired, tired of feeling bad for myself.

Reluctant, I still want to feel sad, it feels good, not in the fetish way.

Waiting, but how long will I wait ?

Desperate, but quick result only last very short, and it cuts me deep...

Sigh, let me a cup of tea.....

And cheers to anyone out there, those with current fever, get well soon.

HOI

If there's something I never like about CC, is the adult users. Why I am singled out kids ? They are kids after all, duh.

Please lah, if you want to argue about your personal relationship, take it to any closed room for fuck sake. Arguing through microphone and speaking loudly only spoilt my mood to surf some porn. Trying to emphasis how BIG is your problem is in CC is tasteless and inconsidered. Shut up please.

Some of you even want to be William Hung !! Have you ever heard of sound pollution ?Your cracked voices have enough potential to cause high blood pressure among the users, espacially you, foreigners !.

SHUT UP.

*click*

There are 2 Mikas that I admired. One is a former F1 driver from Finland, the other is a London based lebanese singer who managed to be a hit among in today's music. Gotta love the falsetto though.

So yea, why that weird title ? My mind seemed to made up one task I am going to do. It's a task that every part of my body screams suicide, stupid, mental, overboard, the end of my world. But the result is so worth it, like what I did on early June, it was a ride till today, heh.

Now all I need to know is when her birthday was....*ponder*.

Anyway let's dance to it.

If there's something wrong about me...

I blame it on ghost festival XD. Now I realise I offended the THIRD LADY. What have the world has came to ?

Like I said in the previous thread, I may not be like-a-ble, that can be the same to you. Dropping such a give away for me just to go around and hit my back ? You got be better than this. Thank goodness I chose not to join you ladies. Damned if I do, damned if I don't, no matter what I did, someone will hate me for it. Hah, it somehow becomes a norm for me, as even I hardly interact except for projects or assignments, I can even offend someone. Sheesh, might as well give a big finger for them all.

I may not as good as you in academic, I may not be as fun loving as you, at least I know what I am doing. Let me remind you how one group of you hated the course rep last year and create done "anti-who-you-know ceremony". Looks like you all are run out of idea to hate her and looking for a scape goat. I am such an easy target, yes ?


Eccentric ? Maybe (imo). Hate me for it ? Up to you. Anyone have the right to laugh at me and taunt me when I am down and crying in the corner, and I have right to stand up and move on. Why should I make you like me any-fucking-way, bitch ?

Bad hair day

Note : fuck, the CC operator accidentally closed the PC I was using, oh well, time to rewrite !!

Just got my hair cut today, at least my head is still attact with me. The barber looked so doan today, and he seem not to be his chappy chap chap self, as he always greet people with the best naive smile ever. I took the right moment to asked him what happened, he let it all out about how his HP went missing and how someone screwed him over the HP. I couldn't quite catch what he said, but I am sure he was pissed, hard. After that he seemed to be back to his chappy chap chap way again, looked relieved I say. Perhaps he need someone to talk to....

Talking about it, it's better for you and me to have something..."alive" to talk to, even your pet. It's useless to just talk to your plushies, pillows, bolsters, sex dolls etc. Believe me, I tried, no way it makes you feel better. The only plus side is those thing will serve your as something to sodomise beat on.

Finally my mid term is over. But I got one more assignments and one club report to finish, with someone literally watching me now......she will lecture me tomorrow anyway.

So wanna play a game that get your sex drive adrenaline pumping ? Play this.

Oh my...

I must have been possesed by a ghost, cause this week I had "offended" 2 ladies !! It's the end of the world zomg a male offended 2 females x00rrrrrr !!11111oneoneonesatusatusatu

Now let's start with the first lady. I don't know how I did it, she sent someone to email me that I offended her in a very...innuendo way, so I quickly apologised...to some extend. I may not always right, but that doesn't mean others are right too. The only thing I want to be frank about is she over-reacted. I am not afraid, even she start to call other to attack here or even start to talk crap about me, I didn't do anything wrong.

But anyway thanks to her, I manage to update my other one at the instant.

And now comes to second lady. I should have wrote "some", it makes alot of difference. Short ? yup. Nothing to write about her, just a wish of luck to her life, no grudge whatsoever.

Now I got this out of my chest, here's song dedicated for both of this seriously beautiful, sexy, cutey and......make me churn out innuendo words. Mika's Lollipop.



Cheers. Both of you baffled me to the max, and I love it.

Things I can never get it through my head

- People still keep pressing the send button IN the lift. For fuck sake, don't you have any common sense that in the lift = no receptionx0r ?!1111

- Idiots who still want others to open the access door for them as they NEVER bring the card along. Why ?! You all don't have pockets ?! Or your pockets are just full of condoms/tampons ?! Your rectums don't consider as pocket ?! Cibais....

- Why there's the need to insert your ATM card 2 times ? Why can't you just continue ?!

- Is it that hard to walk to the cafeteria to get hot coffee ?

Cish..........

Misinformed

Wanted to write this for some time. While I was busy practicing guitar to get ready for my first and final (heh, see first) stage appearance, one of my senior, who happened to be involved in that concert chatted up with the girl who too happen to be singing the song I am playing on that night.

He explained to her about the band, which was "t3h most dangerous band in the 80s" and how they reduce to nothing but a joke in this millennium due to constant delay of their new album and the control freak-ness of the lead singer. What surprised me was he, beaming with confidence, said that the lead singer just passed away recently due to OD. I couldn't help but to chip in, trying to counter his claim with my superior music knowledge(well, not in term of theory). I thought he was joking, or mistake for another band but no, he still insist that his claim was true, without even winking at me to confirm his joke or he was just trying to impress her.

I thought I made a mistake, I went looking through the cyberspace and presto, if they heard what he said, he better be praying which heaven he is going.....

Wanna know what song I played on El3ment Night ?



Nope, I am not pro enough, far from it. I played together with friend and that senior who had to endure my noobness. Lastly, I want to thank both of them for their patience and writing down the chord I need to pluck instead of strum. Yes, Classical players are a bunch of bore. :D

Things I can do when all else failed....

Sleep
Yes....sleep. It helps me to recharge, and an effective method to forget all the shitty things I had endure, to only certain extend.

Music
MP3s + earphone + locked door + snack food = full of win

Figures
Distracting. It keeps me busy to the point of forgetting my lunch time. Fold your legs Ironhide !! Fold dammit !!

I lost many battles, and I am still fighting it. I feel like a squad of soviet canon fodders marching out of Red Square to their death, hoping that the sheer number of their forces will overturn the fascists in the name of mama Russia. Meh.

Semester break can't come soon enough.

The best moment

Images from the competition

Description according to pic from top to bottom :

1. The entrance

2. Elite choir group from KUTPM

3. The stage

4. The girls, include our choir teacher Sandy on the first row of left

5. My friend *teehee*

6. Celebration

7. On the stage, with Sandy got caught in the view

8. More celebration

9. The girls putting some make-up

10. The elite choir, this is time is UCSI

11. Our conductor, joining the fun during celebration

Underdog : The true story

We only trained for 3 weeks. We consisted of a group of crazy people who didn't know each other. 90% of us didn't have experience in choir Our pitch were off tune. We just couldn't get our rythme right. We skipped class just for this shit. Some assholes abandoned us because they got friends' weddings to attend (coincident ? I smell lies). Today, we almost screwed up due to technical problem with the piano but we managed to pull off anyway. We hung our heads low as we just went to Putrajaya just to make up the number for the competition, until the judges announced our qualification. We stunned for 4 seconds before we jump with instant joy.

We, the choir of Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman, the underdog, the minnow among the stronger opponents in the choir competition, stood shoulder to shoulder among the 3 elites which consisted of UCSI(you have to see them perform to feel how scary they are), Yayasan Terengganu and KUTPM (hope I got that right, sorry it's wrong) at the end of the day. I never felt this much joy, which is just an understatement, it's overwhelming, it's out of my ability as I represent my university against other local institutes. I wanna thank my comrades who went through this shit with me together, my slutty gorgeous music teacher Sandy and a finger to those droppers who left us with their tails between their legs.

Now, OFF TO BATU PAHAT WE GO. ROLL ON AUGUST 25TH !!!!

Images will be up laters. Now I will sleep peacefully, with my smilling face. Cheers.

The need to settle things

- Ask those TMnet fuckers about my current phone line

- Choir competition at Putrajaya tomorrow (wish me luck)

- Get Alternator Rodimus

- Get my assignment(s) done

- Finish the report in 2 weeks time

- Finish the debit/credit table in 2 weeks time (but I need to ask someone first next week)

- Do my resume to get a part time job in KL

- Update my comic strip

- Get over "it"

For now. I need to sleep.